Saturday, 3 December 2011
Went to HOP this Wednesday and it definitely felt great. I have to get over my fear of prayer meetings and remind myself not to have a performance-based faith...I keep having this mindset that I'm inferior but I know that's just the work of the devil . It's not easy but I hope it gets better over time...

Resumed my so called guitar lessons with Andy after HOP that day since my lessons were postponed due to the A levels. Was learning the song 'Till I See You' and it felt like I'm relearning how to play the guitar in a way cause I have to learn how to play 'orderly' and not haphazardly like I do with other songs where my strumming patterns are never the same heh. Really difficult to play more than one hour on the guitar since I haven't touched it for a very long time and my 'armor' on my fingers are but no more. On the spiritual side, I have to define for myself what worship is to be able to tell others what it means.

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Today's service was more about how to refuel our spiritual lives. Message was great especially for me cause I fear that my spiritual life would be low or empty during my time in NS. I can sense the difficuly due to peer pressure and all.

Sigh leaving for Korea on the 10-18th December and I don't think I will be able to enjoy this trip at all, since I'm thinking of DI's LOL camp more nowadays. Given a choice, I would opt to go for the camp instead which others may find foolish. Well, it IS my fault in a way for remembering at the last minute the date for the camp just after the trip has been booked. As the days to the camp draw nearer, I can't help feeling more 'argh'. Well at least I will still be able to look forward to Kairo's Ubin Trip! WOO!